÷½Ä,Ë߸Á¬‚h‚c,BGMID,MAPID,ºÏÝÄÞID,ºÏÝÄÞ÷½Ä,ºÏÝÄÞ’l1,ºÏÝÄÞ’l2,ºÏÝÄÞ’l3,ºÏÝÄÞ’l4, "On Saturday night, Joff didn't come home.",999,0,2988,0,,0,0,0,0, Seth told me that he had to return to the city for urgent business.,999,0,2988,0,,0,0,0,0, "The letter from Joff that arrived today. Even though we meet every week, receiving a formal letter from him makes me feel strangely embarrassed.",999,0,2988,0,,0,0,0,0, It was a gentle letter that conveyed his loving feelings.,999,0,2988,0,,0,0,0,0, ...,999,0,2988,0,,0,0,0,0, "And yet, I sleep with Seth every day.",999,0,2989,0,,0,0,0,0, "Joff knows about it, and even so, he still cherishes me every weekend.",999,0,2989,0,,0,0,0,0, What started as something to help Joff has now become an excuse.,999,0,2989,0,,0,0,0,0, "Lately, just meeting Seth makes me feel flushed, and the thought of being held by him makes my body ache.",999,0,2990,0,,0,0,0,0, "So, when I was asked if I would continue serving, the thought of refusing never even crossed my mind.",999,0,2990,0,,0,0,0,0, "Right now, I'm afraid of my relationship with Seth ending.",999,0,2991,0,,0,0,0,0, "If that happens, the loneliness would be incomparable to the time with Youse.",999,0,2991,0,,0,0,0,0, "My body, which has been trained, can no longer go on without Seth.",999,0,2991,0,,0,0,0,0, "That's why, to stay connected with Seth, continuing to serve was the only choice I had.",999,0,2992,0,,0,0,0,0, ...,999,0,0,0,,0,0,0,0,