;//ブロック10100　『逃避』 ;//@konya 11/12 bg貼付 *10100_TOP ;{SceneSet 逃避} ;//--------------------------------------------------------------- ;//背景：LESAR内・漫画喫茶アルカディア・女子トイレ ;//登場人物:瑞樹 ;//視点：瑞樹一人称 ;//時間帯：夜 ;//--------------------------------------------------------------- ;[eval exp="f.l_map = 22"] ;//--------------------------------------------------------------- [eval exp="sf.SRP16 = 1"] [if exp="tf.scene_mode==0"][jump target=*NORMAL_PLAY][endif] ;タイトルから即回想きた時用にウィンドウの設定 ;[winset][scene_exp_init] ;//BGM(回想用） [bgm storage="BGM12"] [jump target=*LABEL_MEMORIES_START] *NORMAL_PLAY ;//--------------------------------------------------------------- ;//bgm12 maniac [bgm storage="BGM12"] ;//〆：黒画面 [bg storage="BG110"][trans_c cross time=500] ;[eval exp="f.l_map = 22"] [sysbt_meswin] *699| [fc] I rushed into the bathroom as if fleeing, and then I found[r] myself unable to move.[pcms] *700| [fc] Ever since returning from that rave, I've been forced to[r] deal with that Dazai almost without any rest, and my fatigue[r] had reached its peak.[pcms] *701| [fc] My physical condition is bad, I feel sick, it's the worst[r] state to be in.[pcms] *702| [fc] If it were a person of the opposite sex I liked, an[r] attractive person, I might not mind the fatigue so much, but[r] after all, the other party is that Dazai.[pcms] *703| [fc] He's like the embodiment of all the ugly parts of a man.[r] Just sharing the same air with him makes me feel sick.[pcms] *704| [fc] I'm sure all the other girls in Jin's group would agree with[r] this view.[pcms] ;//[ChrSetEx layer=5 chbase="mizu_e4"][ChrSetXY layer=5 x=160 y=0][trans_c cross time=150] *705| [fc] [vo_miz s="mizuki0089"] [ns]Mizuki[nse] "And yet that girl..."[pcms] *706| [fc] She seemed almost happy to expose her body to Dazai's[r] desires, to men's lust. Is madness really such a terrible[r] thing?[pcms] *707| [fc] Is madness something so fierce that it can transform a[r] woman's nature into something else...?[pcms] *708| [fc] I left the aftermath of the feast with those red eyes[r] untouched. I didn't even want to breathe the same air from[r] that place.[pcms] *709| [fc] If I had forced myself to stay there, I might have thrown[r] up.[pcms] *710| [fc] In the end, all the girls who were still energetic were[r] taken away by Dazai to watch fireworks.[pcms] *711| [fc] I was the only one who managed to hide in the office and[r] escape after somehow contacting Jin.[pcms] *712| [fc] That girl with the creepy red eyes was truly unsettling.[r] Those who had sex with her ended up making the same awkward[r] movements and left half-naked...[pcms] *713| [fc] Even if those idiots get caught by the police, as far as I'm[r] concerned, it's none of my business. Jin might get angry if[r] he finds out though.[pcms] *714| [fc] Still, I didn't want to get involved with those guys.[pcms] *715| [fc] More importantly for me was the fact that I had accidentally[r] met Kousuke and the others.[pcms] *716| [fc] That encounter acted like a trigger, and since then a fog[r] has settled over my heart, and my irritation has been[r] growing.[pcms] *717| [fc] The joy of reunion on one hand, and on the other, the[r] sadness of having my current undesirable self known.[pcms] *718| [fc] Their eyes that seemed to understand, that pitied me, and[r] their shallow words made me incredibly angry.[pcms] *719| [fc] I opened my shoulder bag and took out my broken choker, my[r] favorite snacks, and my glasses case.[pcms] *720| [fc] Inside the glasses case were drugs packed tightly. They're[r] like magic pills that save me when I'm irritated.[pcms] *721| [fc] ...Kousuke. No matter how much I try to forget him, I can't[r] get him out of my mind.[pcms] *722| [fc] I want to be with him again... But as I am now, I'm not[r] worthy of him. We live in different worlds now.[pcms] *723| [fc] There's no way someone as tainted as me could walk alongside[r] him.[pcms] *724| [fc] Living is really full of unpleasant things. Why is it only[r] me who has to go through something like this?[pcms] *725| [fc] After a deep sigh, I took out a small glass bottle from the[r] case.[pcms] *726| [fc] Inside the glass bottle were sparkling, very fine,[r] transparent crystals.[pcms] *727| [fc] The powder was so fine it seemed it could scatter with a[r] breath, and as I carefully brought it close to my nose, it[r] emitted a dull light.[pcms] *728| [fc] This powder will set me free. It will release me from[r] everything. I just want to forget everything and fall asleep[r] like this.[pcms] *729| [fc] So I took a deep breath and inhaled the powder.[pcms] [black_toplayer][trans_c cross time=1000][hide_chara_int] *730| [fc] After closing my eyes and waiting for a while, the drug[r] began to lead my heart towards freedom.[pcms] *731| [fc] I felt weightless, the fatigue disappeared... Only a sense[r] of ecstasy began to well up. Although I should feel light,[r] my body sinks into the ground.[pcms] [bg storage="BG110"][trans_c cross time=500] *732| [fc] Everything in my field of vision glowed dully yellow... My[r] consciousness became increasingly blurred.[pcms] *733| [fc] Yet only my brain was clearly awake, feeling like I was in a[r] high fever in bed or soaking in a hot bath, a relaxed[r] sensation.[pcms] *734| [fc] And then on the screen behind my eyelids, a familiar scene[r] was projected.[pcms] *735| [fc] My dream... it was to become a singer. That has been[r] consistent since I was a child.[pcms] *736| [fc] If I were to become one, I'd prefer to be a talented singer[r] rather than just an idol for show. An R&B singer was ideal.[pcms] *737| [fc] So I actively went to karaoke and practiced a lot so that I[r] could sing better than anyone else.[pcms] *738| [fc] Kousuke, Wataru, Yuuho, Ren, Hiko-chin. All of us childhood[r] friends had some sort of talent.[pcms] *739| [fc] I wasn't particularly cute, and smart bodies like Yuuho's or[r] Ren's were ideal for me; these big breasts were nothing but[r] a complex for me.[pcms] *740| [fc] I thought singing was my forte, singing was everything to[r] me.[pcms] *741| [fc] Eventually Kousuke began to support my dream.[pcms] *742| [fc] He wrote songs for me, and I was truly happy.[pcms] *743| [fc] Kousuke has always been an all-around sports guy, good at[r] studying, strong in fights, straightforward and very kind...[pcms] *744| [fc] He was an existence that encapsulated all the charms of a[r] man. Before I knew it, I had no interest in any other men[r] but Kousuke.[pcms] *745| [fc] But because I thought Yuuho was the one Kousuke liked, I[r] always harbored painful feelings inside me.[pcms] *746| [fc] So when Kousuke told me he liked me, it felt like one of my[r] dreams had come true; I was so happy.[pcms] *747| [fc] But Kousuke is always a shining boy. A girl like me without[r] any talent other than singing would just be a burden by his[r] side.[pcms] *748| [fc] I wasn't even fat; someone like me just didn't match up with[r] Kousuke.[pcms] *749| [fc] In music too, Kousuke was quickly recognized for his talent,[r] even attracting attention from industry insiders.[pcms] *750| [fc] In a daily life filled with envy and jealousy, I desperately[r] wanted to achieve some kind of result to live up to such[r] people's expectations.[pcms] *751| [fc] But reality is different from dreams. No matter how much I[r] sang, the results didn't come. No matter how hard I tried, I[r] lacked talent.[pcms] *752| [fc] Even though it was my only skill, my only reliance, there[r] was no future for someone without talent.[pcms] *753| [fc] The fear of having my emotional support exposed as just a[r] boring dream.[pcms] *754| [fc] In the end, I became so desperate that I couldn't see what[r] was around me and fell for the invitation of a dubious self-[r] proclaimed industry person.[pcms] *755| [fc] I didn't listen to Kousuke's attempts to stop me and oppose[r] it; I couldn't stand being pitied by Kousuke, being helped[r] and saved...[pcms] *756| [fc] I saw an attitude of condescension from him, as if he was[r] saving me from above, and it made me angry to feel[r] belittled... The same went for what everyone else said.[pcms] *757| [fc] I was taken to an office in a room of a mansion, given a[r] drink, and when I came to, I was on a bed surrounded by many[r] men.[pcms] [black_toplayer][trans_c cross time=1000][hide_chara_int] *LABEL_MEMORIES_START ;//HEV??? ;システムボタン＆ウィンドウ表示 [sysbt_meswin] *758| [fc] Under Shige's direction, I was gang-raped in front of the[r] camera.[pcms] ;システムボタン＆ウィンドウ消去 [sysbt_meswin clear] [evcg白フラ storage="HEV009a" time=1000] [wait time=500] [evcg白フラ storage="HEV009b" time=1000] [wait time=500] [evcg白フラ storage="HEV009c" time=1000] ;システムボタン＆ウィンドウ表示 [sysbt_meswin] *759| [fc] My virginity, which had only gone as far as kissing with[r] Kousuke, was taken by them that day.[pcms] ;システムボタン＆ウィンドウ消去 [sysbt_meswin clear] [evcg白フラ storage="HEV011a" time=1000] [wait time=500] [evcg白フラ storage="HEV011b" time=1000] ;システムボタン＆ウィンドウ表示 [sysbt_meswin] *760| [fc] My first time in every hole was defiled by Shige's huge[r] dick.[pcms] ;システムボタン＆ウィンドウ消去 [sysbt_meswin clear] [evcg白フラ storage="HEV010a" time=300] [wait time=500] [evcg白フラ storage="HEV010b" time=300] [wait time=500] [evcg白フラ storage="HEV010c" time=300] ;システムボタン＆ウィンドウ表示 [sysbt_meswin] *761| [fc] One after another, unknown men's cocks filled my holes.[pcms] *762| [fc] My womb, intestines, and mouth were filled with the men's[r] semen.[pcms] ;//HEV??? [evcg白フラ storage="HEV012a" time=300] *763| [fc] After being confined in that mansion for several days, I[r] began to feel the joy of being a woman in being violated,[r] just like that girl with the red eyes.[pcms] [evcg白フラ storage="HEV012b" time=300] *764| [fc] Once I got to know drugs, I willingly accepted their abuse[r] and reveled in ecstasy.[pcms] [evcg白フラ storage="HEV012c" time=300] *765| [fc] I lost track of even my own name, indulging in carnal[r] desires day after day...[pcms] [black_toplayer][trans_c cross time=1000][hide_chara_int] *766| [fc] When my ego was about to collapse, Jin freed me.[pcms] [bg storage="BG110"][trans_c cross time=500] ;[eval exp="f.l_map = 22"] *767| [fc] After that, I shut myself away at home for a while, not[r] going to school or seeing Kousuke and the others, continuing[r] to escape.[pcms] *768| [fc] Then everything seemed so unimportant, craving drugs and[r] SEX, I followed the throbbing of my body and joined Jin's[r] group.[pcms] [evcg白フラ storage="HEV032a" time=300] *769| [fc] In hindsight, everything was unnatural. There's no way[r] someone like Kousuke and a piece of trash like me with no[r] talent or redeeming qualities should be together.[pcms] [evcg白フラ storage="HEV032b" time=300] *770| [fc] It was a mistake to be with those people who had dreams and[r] talent just because we were childhood friends.[pcms] *771| [fc] I'm nothing but a clown who has nothing, who doesn't possess[r] anything but mistakenly believes he does.[pcms] *772| [fc] This is the right appearance now. This is the right shape[r] now. This is the appropriate life now.[pcms] [evcg白フラ storage="HEV003" time=300] *773| [fc] Drowning in alcohol, drowning in drugs, having SEX,[r] complaining while occasionally reveling in Jin's kindness.[pcms] *774| [fc] This way of life that just drifts along is just right for[r] me. That's enough for me.[pcms] *775| [fc] All those words from Kousuke and the others who know[r] nothing, all that thin sympathy can just be washed away with[r] drugs.[pcms] *776| [fc] That's fine...[pcms] *777| [fc] My consciousness sank into darkness just like that.[pcms] ;//--------------------------------------------------------------- ; 回想モード中なら、回想モード画面に戻る [if exp="tf.scene_mode==1"] [jump storage="b_scene.ks" target=*back_from_SR] [endif] ;[eval exp="sf.g_scene16 = 1"] ;//--------------------------------------------------------------- ;//〆フェードアウト ;[zapend_random] [zapfade] ;//〆jump：00100 [jump storage="00100.ks" target=*00100_TOP]