;//＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿ ;//シーン名 ：『織られる不安』 ;//file名 ：0210 ;//登場人物 ：主人公 ;//服装 ：制服 ;//日付 ：７月１７日 ;//時間 ：1時以降 ;//場所 ：主人公の部屋(時間：夜) ;//予想容量 ：全体を通して5K前後 ;//備考 ：主人公一人称視点 ;//＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿ *0210_TOP ;{SceneSet 織られる不安} ;//bgm03.ogg [bgm storage="BGM03"] ;//★room02a 誠の部屋 [bg storage="room02a"][trans_c cross time=500] ;//システムアイコン＆メッセージウィンドウ表示 [sysbt_meswin] *2938| [fc] I found myself facing the philosopher's time in the dead of night, for[r] what felt like the umpteenth time today.[pcms] *2939| [fc] It's because I went to check out the cosplay photo site that[r] Souichirou told me about, that my worldly desires seemed to have been[r] drained from my soul.[pcms] *2940| [fc] Lying on my back in bed, I stared up at the ceiling.[pcms] *2941| [fc] Doing this so many times in a day, I feel like it's going to mess with[r] my head.[pcms] *2942| [fc] I felt sorry for only shooting blanks when I imagined my 'milk tank'[r] working overtime to produce.[pcms] *2943| [fc] By the way, I need to update my fap material rankings later.[pcms] *2944| [fc] The top spot is firmly held by Onee-san, but the rest can change[r] depending on my mood.[pcms] *2945| [fc] Some days I want curry, other days I crave ramenit's like that.[pcms] *2946| [fc] Souichirou's words from earlier echoed in my head.[pcms] *2947| [fc] [ns]Makoto[nse] "It's a little scary how good things have been piling up..."[pcms] *2948| [fc] Indeed, it is a little scary.[pcms] *2949| [fc] With every good and fun thing that happened, I felt a deepening shadow[r] of anxiety.[pcms] *2950| [fc] I tried lifting the photo frame that was lying face down by my[r] bedside.[pcms] ;//■イベントCG　mob_N007　写真立て [evcg storage="mob_N007a"][trans_c cross time=300] *2951| [fc] In it was proof that a different past self of mine had lived, proof of[r] existence packed into one place.[pcms] *2952| [fc] The simple, unadorned photo frame contained pictures of my family and[r] friends.[pcms] *2953| [fc] The family photo was very old and faded in color.[pcms] *2954| [fc] A young version of my father and mother and an innocent me from my[r] childhood were all smiling carefree.[pcms] *2955| [fc] My parents, standing side by side, looked too young, slightly[r] different from how I remember them.[pcms] *2956| [fc] There I was, with a smile about to spill over as my young mother[r] wrapped her arms around me from behind.[pcms] *2957| [fc] In the background stood a large tree and what seemed to be a signboard[r] with explanations or descriptions written on it.[pcms] *2958| [fc] The photo with friends was more recent but of poor quality, clearly[r] taken with a cellphone at a glance.[pcms] *2959| [fc] To the left and right stood boys in soccer and baseball uniforms, and[r] in the center was me in a dress shirt and school trousers.[pcms] *2960| [fc] All of them were not illusions or lies but snippets of moments[r] experienced by my past self.[pcms] *2961| [fc] Moments from the past that will never return, impossible to recreate.[pcms] *2962| [fc] Eventually, they will fade from memory too, fleeting moments.[pcms] *2963| [fc] The only record that I had a family and friends is contained within[r] this photo frame.[pcms] *2964| [fc] The people in this photo frame... all but me have exited from life's[r] stage.[pcms] ;//■イベントCG　mob_N007　写真立て [evcg storage="mob_N007b"][trans_c cross time=300] *2965| [fc] The family photo was retrieved by Onee-san from a locker at a ruined[r] base shortly after that day when she participated in an investigation[r] operation.[pcms] *2966| [fc] Thinking that dad had kept such a photo in his locker makes my heart[r] ache.[pcms] *2967| [fc] I wonder if I was able to love my father as much as he loved his[r] child.[pcms] *2968| [fc] Did I even deserve to receive such love?[pcms] *2969| [fc] Onee-san knew it was a serious violation to take it out, but she did[r] it for me anyway.[pcms] *2970| [fc] The feeling of being loved and the empty feeling of not being able to[r] reciprocate wrestle within my chest.[pcms] *2971| [fc] The photo with friends was printed out from what remained on the[r] memory of my broken cellphone.[pcms] *2972| [fc] I wonder how many people are left in this world who can remember them.[pcms] *2973| [fc] Even though we were just marking time together until recently.[pcms] *2974| [fc] The life I lived in Akita four years ago now feels like an event from[r] a dream.[pcms] *2975| [fc] It's become vague and fuzzy, like someone else's life or memories from[r] a past life.[pcms] *2976| [fc] It's not just a brain function protecting me from my own misery and[r] pity; more than half of it is fact.[pcms] *2977| [fc] Humans are social creatures that construct societies.[pcms] *2978| [fc] Almost everything that made me who I am, the proof and existence of[r] myself, has been destroyed and lost.[pcms] *2979| [fc] It's no different in meaning than saying that almost all of my[r] existence has been destroyed.[pcms] *2980| [fc] I think it's the same whether one day I die alone and my existence's[r] proof ends, or one day everything but me dies and there's nothing left[r] to prove my existence.[pcms] *2981| [fc] Without realizing it, I must have become a different person, whether I[r] wished it or not.[pcms] *2982| [fc] The me who lived in Akita and the me now are different beings.[pcms] *2983| [fc] Moreover, I have no memory of "that day."[pcms] *2984| [fc] While the image of a terrible incident remains, what exactly happened[r] is not clear.[pcms] *2985| [fc] Perhaps that's why I feel an even greater disconnect between the time[r] before "that day" and now.[pcms] *2986| [fc] It feels the same as going to sleep in my bed at night and waking up[r] in the morning to a world where everyone is dead.[pcms] *2987| [fc] I remember what happened before I fell asleep, and I understand what[r] happened afterward, but the crucial part is completely unknown to me.[pcms] *2988| [fc] To suppress my sentimental feelings, I turned the photo frame face[r] down again.[pcms] ;//★room02a 誠の部屋 [bg storage="room02a"][trans_c cross time=500] *2989| [fc] The life I'm building now with my new friends.[pcms] *2990| [fc] The life with my sister, the only connection between the world four[r] years ago and the present.[pcms] *2991| [fc] Both are precious and irreplaceable to me.[pcms] *2992| [fc] I want to live in this world.[pcms] *2993| [fc] I never want to lose what's important to me again.[pcms] *2994| [fc] The thought of more things becoming blurred and unrecallable inside me[r] was a fear so chilling it made my spine freeze.[pcms] *2995| [fc] Longing for a world that exists only in photos and memories is[r] something I can save for when I'm much older.[pcms] *2996| [fc] The thought of losing the present without my knowledge, just like four[r] years ago, was unspeakably terrifying.[pcms] *2997| [fc] [ns]Makoto[nse] "..."[pcms] *2998| [fc] Sleepiness weighs heavily on my eyelids.[pcms] *2999| [fc] The world before sleep and the world after waking up.[pcms] *3000| [fc] Hoping that when I wake up it will still be a continuation of today, I[r] fell asleep with a prayer.[pcms] ;//BGMフェードアウト [fadeoutbgm time=500] ; 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